Lonely

 There is a pain in my chest

and something is missing.

A voice in my head

that I keep listening.

Desperation is knawing at my heels,

I think I'm going mad,

grinding my teeth.

I don't want to leave it at that,

there must be something missing.

A secret spell or ingredient,

something to fix this.

I won't be listening 

to the devil on my shoulder

or angel on the other.

It's God I'm devoted to

and I'm crying for help.

Don't you go desperate,

is what he says.

I know sometimes

life looks like a mess.

Sometimes there's nothing to fix this

and I promise it's fine,

because you've always got help,

when your life is on the line.

Look out for what is given

and see it's a lot.

Sometimes things seem missing,

when in reality they're not,

because you didn't need them

to start something new.

And all you'll ever need,

it's just me and you. 

 

So, pick up your smile,

darling, I know it's hard,

but be patient for a while

and look out for God.

I'm everywhere you are

and all the places you're not.

So, you'll never be lonely,

even if I'm the only thing you've got. 

 

And don't underestimate yourself,

you're good company too.

Try it for a while

and spend some time with you.

Get to know yourself better,

it'll help you a lot

for the times in company,

but also, when you're not. 

 

Never give up hope,

because help is at hand.

All you have to do is start searching

and I'll make sure you find

whatever is needed,

if you prove a strong mind.

Persistence is silver

and trusting is gold,

finding me is a dime,

make sure you don't loose hold.

 

I say my good-byes,

knowing you're in good company.

Take care of yourself

and know you can count on me,

but count on you too,

because there are treasures

that I buried in you.

With care and purpose

I chose every one of your gifts

and just know, my darling,

my opinion never wavers

that you were perfectly created

by the creator.

 

I love you.